freaking out.

Great. My life is so over this time.

I know the past can't be rewritten but I wish I could get back to saturday and relive my life from there.



I'm so so so, very deeeeead.

I truly am man.

Gosh.


I prayed for nearly three whole days but the situation just got worse instead of the opposite.


Nice. Reeeeaaal nice.



There's already a solution all figured out....but what's the point?


Everyone that matters already knows right? How I'm gonna show my face...I just don't know.

And there's a huge hole in my pocket too.


I have no idea why this had to happen. My life really is super screwed right now. I feel like it's a joke....my life, I mean.



Honestly....it really does feel like it is. I wonder how much time is left before I turn total emo?


Just awesome. grrreeaaat.


I can't wait for year 2010....hopefully everything will have been settled by then. I can only hope.


I know people will probably bing this up time and time again. That's why I feel so hopeless.



Like I'm on the brink....the edge......about to fall off. but I'm still....thank god....sane. I gonna go crazy. And not like the JB, who's got going crazy over a GIRL. GOSH. What a dumb song. They are so overrated.




Anyway.....back to what I was saying.....I really am dead. I wish the world was coming to an end. That would be just fantastic. Gooooooosh.




There's a solution for this situation.
But it doesn't really matter
No, not anymore.
Because the word's gotten out...
Yeah that fact makes me wanna
Shout.
And I can't really think
Of anything else, except...
How how how how how
How am I going to show my face to this
World world world world world...
I live in?
No, I can't.
I'm just so
Over over over over over....
Over in my head.
And I'm
Sinking sinking sinking sinking sinking....
In and in....
In and in.
I have a really
Bad feeling.
About this
Yeah, I do
Cause
You you you you know...
Already so let's just cut the crap.
I wanna move on
Move on
Move on
mo-ove on...
But how am...
I going to do that?!
Oh man oh man oh man oh man oh man....
This feels like the end...
Byebye friends.
And I
I
I
I
I, need a fresh start
Need to calm my heart...
Dooooown.





OH MAN I AM SO FREAKING DEAD. THIS JUST SUCKS AND I'M AM SO NOT OVERREACTING. MAN. PLEASE.......I REALLY REALLY REALLY HOPE THE WORLD COMES TO AN END SOON!!! I REALLY NEED TO END ALL THIS AND MOVE ON OR SOMETHING! I NEED A REALLY CLEAN, NICE....FRESH START. I WONDER IF I HIDE AWAY FOR A WHILE...MAYBE EVERYTHING WILL BE SETTLED LIKE DUST FALLING ONTO THE FLOOR? I REALLY REALLY WISH EVERYONE WOULD FORGET WHAT HAPPENED OVER THE WEEKEND. THEY NEED A BRAINWASH. THEY REALLY DO FOR MY SAFETY'S SAKE.
I WANNA HIDE AWAY. BUT I CAN'T. THE FOLKS DON'T UNDERSTAND. I CAN RUN FOR SOME TIME BUT IN THE END, I KNOW IN MY MIND.......I CAN'T HIDE. I CAN'T HIDE, I CAN'T HIDE, I CAN'T HIDE.





WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN?




THAT'S ALL I NEED TO KNOW.


I'M FRANTIC AND FRIGHTENED....GOT NOWHERE TO GO.


MY HEAD'S ABOUT TO BURST....I'M REACHING MY BREAKING POINT....


SOMEONE JUST HELP ME OUT?




IN CONCLUSION...ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS JUST FOUR WORDS...........:




my life is over.

SENTOSA SATURDAY!

Hey people of HBC! Saturday is the totall celebration so get on down to Sentosa. The party will probably last till eight thirty......PM.


It'll start at about...one?


I forgot.



And I'm so dead.


Dropped a freaking.........into.....freaking......!!




Okay. Freaking out.
AND I'M DOING THIS IN SCHOOLLLL!!!!




YAAAAAAYY!!!







XOXO-A!*

PLEEAASE!

TKGS=232
Crescent Girls'=243
Cedar Girls=244
X***=245 [name of school confidential to self.] :D






Whhhhyyy?! Man. I am scared to death. Look at all those super high cutting off points! HOW? HOW AM I GONNA GET INTO A GOOD SCHOOL WITH......!!!



Man I need a self-esteem boost. Lol! XD



And I SO gotta have more faith. SO have to. I just have to trust and believe that a miracle will happen. Oh man.

I'm so dead. No, I can't say that!


[oh and Someone said that DSA is an easy way out. What about that eh??!]


Haha. Okay! Just venting! Byeeeeeeeee...............


PEOPLE! Tomorrow we're celebrating so drag yourselves down to.....where are we going again? Oh right...we haven't decided. Anyway!!


Girls from 6.4! Not ALL the girls but...you know who you girls are!! YUE TING'S HAVING A B-DAE PARTAY SO LET'S RUSH TO PIZZA HUT AT THE MALL ON THE......29th of OCTOBER!! THAT'S NEXT WEDNESDAY PEOPLE!! WOOH!





xoxo-A!*

RECORDED!

Oh! Someone said Something today! Officially. Today's the 21st of October. At around 11 am, Someone said, if I didn't do AS WELL AS that Someone expected[for PSLE.], I would NOT get...scolded! So far, so good.
AND, also! If I did worse than mentioned above, if I did BADLY, I wouldn't get scolded EITHER! Oh yes!
So I need some proof...so yeah...that's why I posted this.

Adding on! That said Someone also explained that PSLE didn't matter! Oh! THAT'S big. Yet I was made to study my butt off for a YEAR by that Someone! For my PSLE!

[oh i just realised this is retarded...never mind, going on.]

So I just hope that Someone will follow through and not scold me on 20th of Nov, where I shall, very probably....die.

Not being negative or EMO or...pessimistic....or....having no faith...but I honestly think I'm gonna die. Because, obviously...I also don't think I did well. And I feel this way...because..I'll admit it....I didn't do exactly my BEST. Oh man so so so so so so deeead!

Thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Perfect

My perfect guy is.....




FUNNY*

SWEET

THOUGHTFUL



and has...




AN AWESOME SMILE*

BROWN EYES

AWESOME HAIR





AND I FOUND THAT GUY! :D



yeess. i am really bored. haha. so i came up with this haha. and yeeah! i know someone this cute!



CUTE GUYS ARE BETTER THAN HOT ONES!** XD



so bo liao!----------------------------->>>tsktsk.

Anxious? Nervous? Scared.

I'm going to get my PSLE results back on the 20th of November. The day of reckoning! And most probably the day I die.

I'm not very confident about the results. Not at all, honestly. I can safely say that I did maybe higher than average for my English and Science but Maths? Chinese? Oh...I must have SO bombed those two subs! I'm so so very dead. Will I even get more than 200? And my parent's expectations aren't what you would call 'low' or even 'average'. I mean, 240?! Come ON. I'm dead!

Maybe a miracle will happen though. Maybe I would score more than 220. Who knows? Even more than 235. But, you know...sort of unlikely don't you think? Pressure pressure pressure!!

Hopefully my parents won't overreact. Dad?? Mom?? Got that? DON'T GO NUTS.


Too bad they refuse to prepare themselves mentally for the let down. They think I'm gonna do well. Man, if only I could rewind time.

Too bad...